Coming out of the closet

Well I am starting to feel a bit like a big boob, I try this blogging thing and go to look at other blogs and mine seems so juvenile and silly, I want to show my work online, I want people to be interested but I am afraid I do not know what I am doing or where I am going with this. This is my passion and I want to leave my pencil print on the world but how do I get started? The internet is full of everyone telling you how to do it, and even bloggers themselves, then you check out their sites and they have no followers..... So how do I do it and make myself a household name? I want to learn to do pertraits, I am good at the wild life, I have no great income or possibilities of it and feel like I will always be living in the closet. I might as well grab a pillow and blanket and just lie there but I can't I need to find the answers. Do you think if I leave e-mails and questions they will answer me? I want to be the best. NO no no no no I will be the best, I spend literally hours in front of my computer, I sketch, I show you and I move on and try to learn, Whose bright idea was this???? I will get back to you in a couple days and hopefully I will have some more ideas. Phew I am tired and homesick, It is tough living in a new country with new language and no friends, maybe I will fail, this will be up to me we will see if I come back, I posted my blog on my fb page but still no-one has come to see it so I am lost and confused and out of ideas, I hope if your a blogger you have better luck at this than I do. I will still work on my art and maybe post a couple of pieces I have done, we will see but in the meantime I need a nap, so off to the closet and I'll catch you later!